I’ve been crying at every back-to-school post this year, especially
the kindergarten ones. I don’t understand why you all insist on rudely
reminding me kids grow up. Just the thought of Meg going to kindergarten is making
me cry again right now. She’s so little! (You: well, duh, she’s only three and has
two full years to go. Me: But yesterday she was a baby! Which means kindergarten
will feel like tomorrow!) (This also may have been slightly brought on by the
fact she now signs drawings with her initials. She can WRITE. Or, you know,
make two M’s.)
It’s not just time moving so fast, though. What I’m most
scared of is the gradual separating from my control. I want to know she’s 100%
safe all the time. Obviously that’s impossible, but right now we’re as close to
it as we’re ever going to be. With each year, I’ll have to give her more independence
and going to school feels like the biggest jump (aside from learning to drive,
but thankfully I haven’t started worrying about that quite yet. In a couple
years, maybe.)
At least Meg is a social butterfly, adapts quickly to new
situations, and enjoys learning. It does make me feel a little better to think
about how much she’s going to love school. After her, I get to worry about my
shy boy who sobs his heart out every time we leave him.
The control thing is the hardest part for me. We started kinder this year and it's been so, SO much harder for me than preschool ever was.
ReplyDeleteI pretty much want to freeze time as I can't stand the idea of losing control or having to trust some institution to keep my baby safe. Ahhhhhhhhh
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